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RANT POEM

THIS IS GETTING HARD WHAT AM I DOING I KNOW THE PAIN WILL BE WORTH IT I HAVE TO KEEP GOING I HAVE TO KEEP GOING I HAVE TO KEEP GOING  I HAVE TO KEEP GOING FOR THE FUTURE ME I CHOSE THIS NEW VALUE ITS BETTER AND MORE TRUE ITS A VERY HONEST VALUE ITS CALLED RESPONSBILITY I CAN DO IT I CAN DO THIS I MUST KEEP GOING GOD GIVES ME THE STRENGTH I NEED.

What is this...

THE KIDS MY AGE The kids my age well I cant relate dating and boys girls and vape and here I am trying to find my way through life i feel like i am not enough but then i realize i can not fill another persons cup because we can only truly know how much water we need in our cup.

THE STRUGGLE FOR PEACE

  A NEW BEGINNING Newfound peace is found in absolute resilience in the face of  mindful hardship when the obstacle comes to your face and you fight  for your peace.

Finding myself (P1)

  Closure I'm trying to give you up. Trying to give it all up. Trying to let it all go. Trying to find myself slow. Healing the heart that burnt with millions of glasses torn apart all torn apart by me and the decisions of regret. And i'll be honest here, I've forgotten you alot but you came to mind hours i forgot yet those seconds i remember you pass my mind each second not with love not with infatuation rather regret and a strange linger  that stems from the innocent child clueless of her own hearts desire for i desired you and when time told me it wasnt fate  it felt it couldnt be true however my mind for the best knew, that no matter what, it was the fact that the destiny i made in my head was rather a story of my skills and not the shape of gods plan for i had thought god has planned our fate how silly 7 years long of love can result  in such delusions  or were they delusions or the making of an empty heart? and the stolen tears of a clueless child? Indeed,...

Heartache

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  Moon, tell me if i could Send me heart right upto you? So when i die, which i must do could it shine down right here with you? -My Love Mine All Mine (By Mitski) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Heartbreak isn't the easiest to deal with, so if you're there out struggling, I hope you know you are not alone. I think I've confined those feelings and desire inside of me for the longest period of time, starting from my childhood innocence, and having to end it in the current adolescent phase I am in, I still struggle to find closure. That also adds to the fact as to why I even started this blogpost, because I don't know when closure will find its way to me. This will be typed from the most raw part of my heart. I was around 9 years old, and I could swear to myself I could never find interest in a man, and when I did without realization, denial was the only thing that could prote...